This is my freedom year. I plan to free myself from anything that restricts me. I don't mean the day to day of jobs, kids, or paying bills (but, hell it would be welcome to drop some of the more tedious aspects of life!)
I am going to free myself of restrictive thinking and actions. Instead of worrying, I will take a more positive approach to whatever I do. I want to shed old ways of thinking that don't serve me well. In the past I have put too much emphasis on what others might think. My new, improved train of thought might say, this is what I need/want to do--I'm doing it!
Someone reading this might just be thinking, "So simple, so less writing about it, just get on with it." Easier said than done! I have been coming around to making changes to a mindset I may as well have set in concrete.
My notation of plans here is a chipping away at that solid mass, so that I may build something just as strong, but better in its place! There are going to be times that effort will look/feel wasted or stalled. I will get a glimpse of a crack, and be re-energized to renew efforts. No one else should be shaping what I should be. I have the reins of my own life. If thinking and doing good makes me feel awesome, you can be damn sure I will be doing it!
I also aim to be more comfortable in my own skin. I appreciate that my body looks after me, so I in return should be showing it more love. I may have some "excesses" but they are part of the life story. I have to admit the idea of doing a bunch of work to look like a model doesn't really appeal to me, and I love my food too much to do anything in that department. The previous statements do not mean that I plan to just ignore my health. I can do moderation. I like enough different foods to keep all of me happy. This gal won't be sweating it out in a gym. I don't believe in resolutions at New Year. I won't be a failure if I don't finish changing my mindset and attitude by this time next year. As long as I am a better version of myself!
To all of you who make my heart sing with your presence and conversation, I need to let you know I love you. I sometimes forget that even though I have said this affirmatively in my head, oops maybe the over-thinker in my brain never thought saying this out loud was prudent or necessary. The over-thinker thought it might get a weird look or a brush-off. Life is too damn short not to tell folks you love them. Just like saying "Thank you!" Neither thing is wrong to say. Bring on the puzzled looks, but I will be opening the mouth to drop these tidbits where necessary. I have mentioned gratitude and inspiration many a time in the past. Love and thanks encompass both.
I think the lines from Merry Go Round are resonating here: Slow down, we've been turning for too long. Slow down, cause I'm barely holding on, and I don't know if I can make it another time around. I don't want to keep going around and around in the same circles at the same speed, doing the same old, thinking the same old thoughts. I need to slow down, renew my grip and figure out where I WANT to go!
